It's just another sleepless night for me.
The time now is 1:51AM.
And I just can't fall asleep tightly.
It's been like this for two weeks already.
Yet I still never get one good night sleep.
I feel like I'm a zombie more than anything now.
It don't really feel good though.

I miss him so much.
I hope he's really okay.
I feel like calling him but I scare that it'll interrupt him.
Especially when the nights come.
I miss you more than anyone would do.
I hope I could fall asleep in ur arm now.
I hope I could feel the warmth of your body now.
I hope I could touch you now.
I hope I could just kiss you whenever I want to.
I hope I could look into ur eyes.
I hope I could do all the things stick together with you.
I hope, I wish.

I dunno what to do.
Could anyone direct me or give me some advice for what to do or where to go now ?
This is the second day after my exam's over.
I dunno what to do now.
Maybe I shouldn't thinking bout anything now and enjoy my movie until I fall asleep.
I just hope that I could sleep tight for one night is enough.
It feel really exhaust whenever u didn't take enough sleep for days.
People told me to take a nap or goes back to sleep after I woke up if I still feel tired.
But I just can't goes back to sleep or take a nap after I woke up.
What's the thing that keep disturbing my heart ?

Every time, whenever I saw my friend playing with their partner, sweetly, I just hope that I could really play with u like that too.
In that short moment, everything just came up on my mind but I just won't telling you that because I'm scared.
I'm scare that I would expert more again than in the end get myself hurt again.
It really hurts that you felt like your heart are ripped by some animal with their sharp teeth.
I dunno what happened to me.
Keep thinking much on negative side.
I dislike myself being so.
I just need some times maybe.
Time cure everything and reveal everything.
Everything will be fine honey. Just relax ur mind.
Don't stress it out anymore.
Relax your soul. Relax your heart.
Everything's gonna be fine.


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